the hurricane of my life

midnite_tiger @ 2005-11-16T00:51:00

2005-11-16T05:54:58Z

First things first... AW!!

Anyways, you all should know by now that my 19th bday is fast arriving...Saturday is my bday celebration at The Phoenix. I'll probably be there around 10,10:30 so drop by and party with me!!

midnite_tiger @ 2005-11-14T11:51:00

2005-11-14T16:51:51Z

I've allowed anonymous comments again, sorry to Jessica and David for the mix up :)

midnite_tiger @ 2005-11-10T13:01:00

2005-11-10T18:36:59Z

Erica's not been feeling too well about herself, and life in general lately...so we need to show her just how much she's worth. Almost everyone on my list knows Erica in some shape or form...

Reply with your name and why you love Erica!

I'm Nikki, Erica's been my best friend for 3 years and we've known each other for 7. I love her because she's the kindest, most generous, most empathetic person I know. She's hard working, passionate, intelligent, creative, fun, sexy, honest, loyal, sensitive, caring and understanding. She's an amazing friend and I am so goddamned lucky to be able to call her my best one :)

midnite_tiger @ 2005-08-29T16:39:00

2005-08-29T20:42:49Z

The pitbull ban is official today. Pitbulls will no longer allowed to be bred.

Stupid fucking government. Everyone better love their dogs while they can, cuz I'm sure more breeds are gonna be tallied against.

Have a ♥

2005-08-23T00:40:25Z

http://www.donotdrill.ca

Sign it, please. Even if you're not all that interested in this type of stuff, as a favour to me.

midnite_tiger @ 2005-07-06T19:32:00

2005-07-06T23:33:13Z

"For one night only, an event so unforseen that not even the competitors know they're part of it. Ladies and Gentleman, it's the battle of the Large Spaces. Tonight's contenders...in this corner, weighing in at the size of a microchip because he's just a program, Agent Smith! And in this corner, weighing in at about a keg of beer a night, Devin Townsend. It's the ultimate showdown!"

midnite_tiger @ 2005-06-27T00:17:00

2005-06-27T04:17:32Z

Erin Rumsby is a stupid whore. That is all.

midnite_tiger @ 2005-03-31T12:59:00

2005-03-31T18:00:04Z

OH YEAH!

Jimi has a show on Saturday. It's at the Reverb, and we dunno what time the guys are on just yet (they think it depends on how many tickets they sell) BUT there are going to be EMI execs there, so the bigger the crowd the better for the guys to get noticed. Tickets are $15 at the door but if you know you're coming, let me know and I'll put aside a $10 ticket for you and bring it down to you when you get to the venue.

midnite_tiger @ 2005-03-28T15:56:00

2005-03-28T20:56:26Z

midnite_tiger @ 2005-03-08T17:12:00

2005-03-08T22:46:41Z

So today has been uneventful mostly...went with Mom to bring Alicia to the doctors, had lunch with them and now I'm home. I predict a very boring evening.

midnite_tiger @ 2005-03-08T12:35:00

2005-03-08T17:41:17Z

Idea stolen from Eva...

This was entirely too much fun, I may make more later on.

midnite_tiger @ 2005-03-02T19:19:00

2005-03-03T00:28:53Z

So today was an absolutely wretched day. I woke up feeling like I got hit by a Mack, and it just got progressively worse throughout the day. My mom agreed to drive me to the docs after I babysat, so I tried to relax...now why would I possibly think I would be able to do that in this house? I asked Aunt Carol to take me to the docs after I was done babysitting...she said no. I asked Mom the same thing, and she said yes, and yet SOMEHOW my mother is wrong according to Poppa. And not only is she wrong for not taking me to the docs right away, I deserve to get yelled at because I didnt demand that she take me right away? He was yelling at me all day, and everytime I tried to walk away he would scream louder, even though I told him I had a migraine and was not feeling well enough to argue. Then to top even that off, he calls me while I'm at Moms and the convo goes like this-

Me:hello?
Poppa: what are you doing?
me: waiting for mom to get home
poppa: see, i told you she'd get you to babysit
me: i was always supposed to babysit, moms been trying to get this dentist appointment for a week
poppa: well what about the doctor?
me: shes taking me after she gets back, i told you that like 8 times
poppa: OH THATS FUCKIN BULLSHIT, IM SICK OF YOU DEALING WITH HER SHIT, BLAH BLAH BLAH *click*

So now my head is hurting even worse then before, and I'm crying cuz I'm halfway to hating him. Bah.
Mom brought me to the walk in clinic and surprise surprise, I let my previous doctor jab a needle in me for no reason because I have the freaking flu -_- It's out of California and theres no anti virus for it, AND they dont want me to take any antibiotics for my throat cuz I just got finished taking some when I had that sinus infection, so they dont want me getting immune. I bought some throat spray,but basically I have to suffer through it until it works its way out of my system, or until it gets worse and I can take the meds. whoopedeefuckingdoo. I'm in such a terrible mood right now. I think I'll take like 3 tylenol and just pass right the fuck out in a couple hours. Peace.

**edit** because erica makes me smile

Darica - I've slept so long without you says:
LOL i am such a dingus
Darica - I've slept so long without you says:
i kept refreshing my lj page, and i was like "huh? how come nikki's comment isnt showing up?" and started logging in and out, thinking something was wrong with the server
Darica - I've slept so long without you says:
yeah, it was a dj comment
Tiger -kill me now says:
LMAO

midnite_tiger @ 2005-03-02T09:51:00

2005-03-02T14:53:01Z

I am so goddamned sick it's not funny...my head is pounding like no tomorrow, every inch of my body aches, my throat is all red and raw and closing up...and whats my aunt carol say when I ask her to bring me to the clinic later? "I cant move my car cuz there'll be no parking when we get back". FUCK YOU, YOU SELFISH WHORE. I'm fucking dyeing here, bawling my eyes out and you're worried about a parking space? I hope you slip on the ice or something, and noone's willing to move their car for you.

midnite_tiger @ 2005-03-01T15:52:00

2005-03-01T20:53:09Z

So last night I went to Jimi's with the intention of talking to him about that whole situation...I took one look at him and knew it couldn't be true. He was just too sad and confused, and I felt so secure looking at him that I knew there was no way. Then I felt horrible for having even that small piece of doubt, but I'm sure anyone in my situation would've been suspicious...it wasn't like she just said "your bf is a slut", she doctored a whole friggin conversation, even mispelling things the way he does. It was alot to take in. Jimi tells me it's okay that I felt unsure- I don't feel like it is, but it's time to move past it and let whatever happened be in the past. And once again, another test that proves to us that we can get through anything together.

I slept there, which was really nice since I haven't seen him on a weekday in a bit. He's coming down this weekend cuz Saturday is LEWIS BLACK BABY, YEAH! :D I got up at like 6 this morning cuz I never really slept well all night, and Jimi got up at like 20 to 7 when his alarm went off. His mom poked her head in to say bye at 7 and Jimi was like "whoa, I thought you were taking Nikki to the subway. Thats what dad said" so I had to throw clothes on quickly and hop in the SUV. She drove me to Glencairn and we got to talk a bit on the way, which was pretty cool. As conservative and bitchy as his mom can be, we talk pretty easily.

I got home and crashed like noone's business, and have been laying down on and off throughout the day cuz I feel gross. Tomorrow I'm going to drop my resume off at Kensington market, as well as stop by New Tribe to get a hematite bead for my lip ring. I had put a retainer in, in case some scrapping went down (I had wanted to confront Maria, but Jimi asked me to just put it behind me) but when I tried to put my ring back in, my closers slipped and chipped the bead. New Tribe says theirs are only a buck, wootness. I'll probably get Jon or RJ to put it in for me so I dont slip again, and I might end up buying a lip stud while I'm at K-market cuz that retainer was not very comfortable. I'm also friggin babysitting tomorrow, thursday AND friday. My mom wouldnt get off my back about it, so I said yes. But after this week, I'm done. I'm not babysitting so much. She expects it of me now, and regardless if she gives me some cash for it (ooh, 10 bucks, isnt she so generous...why not give that to me cuz I'm your daughter and you love me, huh?) it's really me doing her a favour all the time. She gets mad or petulant if I say no.

And thats it. Tata.

midnite_tiger @ 2005-02-28T23:57:00

2005-03-01T05:03:51Z

Out of respect to Jimi, who wants to just put this whole mess behind us, I've been asked to just let things lay as they are. Thanks to everyone who reassured me and had my back during this :)

weekend update

2005-02-28T16:08:59Z

- was pretty good, Jimi came over for 7. We were supposed to make cupcakes which I was REALLY looking forward to, but Aunt Carol informed me we don't have any cupcake or muffin pans -_- We ended up ordering pizza and wings and just chilled the whole night, listening to my redownloaded comedy bits. I wanna get The Blue Collar Comedy Tour dvd, and The Blue Collar Comedy Tour Rides Again. They're 20 bucks each at HMV.

- We were SUPPOSED to leave at 6, but Jimi went for a nap at quarter to 4, so we left at 7:30ish. We stopped at Harry Flashman's so he could wish a happy birthday to his friend. I met Celia (the girlfriend before me)...physically, I didn't think of her as the kind of girl Jimi would be attracted to. I didn't talk to her long enough to see how she was personality-wise. I stood there feeling decidedly dumpy (everyone else was wearing gina-ish/tight clothes and I'm here in my parachute pants and bulky jacket) until we left. Then it was on to Johnny's party. I had a pretty good time. Met the infamous Tony and Vanessa....wweeiiirrd kids. First off, Tony's one of those losers that basically brags about the drugs he's done- even though there's no way he could've done 4 vials of LSD straight and not OD'ed. And he treats Vanessa like she's a dog. "Come here now!"..."bring me the phone"..."just shut up for a minute". And Vanessa is your A-typical 16 year old love struck naive girl who will do anything he wants because she loves him so much. She stole Jimi's beer, lol. He only had like 4 beers and when he went to get another there were like 6 gone and a bunch of empty bottles on the table with the labels peeled off, but Vanessa had labels in her pocket.

- Woke up at like 9 in a very awkward angle. We slept on the pull out couch and I stupidly took one of the big cushions instead of a throw pillow for my head, so my neck was stiff. I found out later that it wasnt from the cushion though, because as teh day went by I started to feel like total and utter shit. Every limb was weak and sore, my throat was killing me, I was having cramps and getting back spasms and worst of all, I had a migraine like you wouldnt believe. Then to top that off, we were supposed to go on like a double date thing with his friend Chris and her girlfriend Melinda (who Jimi works with). Jimi was like "We dont have to go, its ok" but I knew he hadnt seen Chris in like a year so I took a tylenol and toughed it out. We just went to Jack Astors and had some nachos. At first I was very quiet cuz I felt like total crap, but the tylenol started to make me feel a bit better and we started talking about movies and philosophy and religion (they're very christian...I was tempted to debate with them, but I didnt want to offend). They seem alright. Went back to Jimi's around 6 and we had planned to watch The Manchurian Candidate, which I've wanted to see for awhile, but his PS2 isnt in his room anymore and I didnt feel like sitting up on the couch, I wanted to lay down. A few times I cried a bit cuz my head hurt so bad, so Jimi freaked out and got his Mom to check my temperature and everything. So cute, he was so worried. I had a bit of a fever so Jimi drove me all the way home. I totally crashed as soon as I got in.

Anyways, on that charming note, I leave you with this hilariously funny site, with such gems as "Loneliness:if you find yourself struggling with loneliness, you arent alone. And yet you are alone. So very alone". Brilliant!

midnite_tiger @ 2005-02-26T12:06:00

2005-02-26T17:06:06Z

Have you seen Avril Lavigne's new video? OMG, SHE IS LYK SO PuNk RaWk! *kicks something over*

midnite_tiger @ 2005-02-25T18:44:00

2005-02-25T23:44:30Z

Tiger - says:
me and jimi are gonna make cupcakes tonight X-D
Dave: Hamlet - The world's first Emo Boy. says:
"special" cupcakes?
Dave: Hamlet - The world's first Emo Boy. says:
oh
Dave: Hamlet - The world's first Emo Boy. says:
OH
Dave: Hamlet - The world's first Emo Boy. says:
OH WAIT A MINUTE!
Dave: Hamlet - The world's first Emo Boy. says:
i know what that means now
Tiger - says:
lol no
Tiger - says:
although im sure we could do that
Tiger - says:
NO
Tiger - says:
im on my period
Tiger - says:
i mean actual cupcakes
Dave: Hamlet - The world's first Emo Boy. says:
ohhh
Dave: Hamlet - The world's first Emo Boy. says:
lol cuz at the shows Jimi was talking to someone and he's like "and then me and Nikki are gonna- umm....make cupcakes"
Tiger - says:
cookies, it was
Tiger - says:
and we did
Dave: Hamlet - The world's first Emo Boy. says:
cookies
Tiger - says:
and it was good
Dave: Hamlet - The world's first Emo Boy. says:
close enough
Dave: Hamlet - The world's first Emo Boy. says:
lol
Tiger - says:
i mean
Tiger - says:
the cookies
Tiger - says:
were good
Tiger - says:
*shifty eyes*
Dave: Hamlet - The world's first Emo Boy. says:
dammit
Dave: Hamlet - The world's first Emo Boy. says:
now im hungry
Tiger - says:
for cookies? or ...cookies?
Dave: Hamlet - The world's first Emo Boy. says:
cookies
Dave: Hamlet - The world's first Emo Boy. says:
...
Tiger - says:
die.

midnite_tiger @ 2005-02-24T18:30:00

2005-02-24T23:31:28Z

Bitches.

My original idea was to try to get accepted to that Candy Cunts community, and then tell them to fuck off. But everyone found me ugly (oh the pain *rolls eyes) so I went to more fun route...I made that pic, as well as wrote a paragraph basically telling them what retarded assholes that deserve pain they are. I was going to wait until my official rejection stamp, but I got anxious and bored and did it early. I had alot of fun with that :D Erica had more fun that I did, I think lol. People like that make her genuinely sick. I wonder what kind of backlash I'll get...

Anyways, today was alright. Woke up at like 10ish, called Split Endz for an appt., then went in for 1 to get my hair cut. I've decided that I do indeed like it, and I think those who don't or are iffy about it would like it better once they see me because it looks better IRL. So far I've only gotten two people that say they dont like it, Ashley and Dan...everyone else likes it :) People...ok, Erica, lol complained that they couldn't really tell what it looked like cus its not head on so I tried to take a pic in my mirror...25 tries later, lmao

Nvm how I look, which is like crap :p

Tried to sell my comp but yeah, no buying so I just gave it to the guy. Mom flipped at that, she was all "he's gonna make a profit from that you know". What the hell do I care? I was gonna throw it out anyways, might as well have someone use it for something. And it's gonna cost him alot of parts and labour to fix that thing so no skin off my back.

Tomorrow I have my interview and then YAY Jimi is coming down :D And that is all. G'night.

midnite_tiger @ 2005-02-24T15:24:00

2005-02-24T20:24:34Z

Side

Back

Front

Sooooo....whatya think? Honest opinions please. Poppa likes it (I thought he was gonna find it too short), and Adam likes it...Dan was a dick about it, but who gives a fuck what he thinks...I'm torn between liking it and thinking I look like a boy. I like the cut itself but I think it's a little too short- which is no big deal cuz it'll be longer in like 3 weeks. No point obsessing about it, since it doesnt look bad and I cant change it anyways. I wanna get a ceramic straightener so I dont have to keep blowdrying my hair, which is killing it. Plus I think I'd like having my hair long better if it was straight.

*edit*
yay, I can make my own pics and schtuff with this comp. Look what I made!

midnite_tiger @ 2005-02-23T16:58:00

2005-02-23T21:58:21Z

omg, has anyone seen the latest Humane Society commercial?! It's telling you not to leave your dog in the car (I hate those people -_-) and it shows things from the dogs point of view...the dog's vision gets blurrier and blurrier, and it starts to pant and whine until everything fades away. I wanted to cry, talk about an effective commercial.

Today I slept in, then went to the mall with Poppa and went grocery shopping. Finally got my Finding Nemo fruit snacks I wanted, lol. And I've spent a bunch of the day installing programs, like winamp and Spybot and Klite.

I have a job interview at Suzy Shiers on Friday. It's gonna be pretty scary though...it's a group interview, followed by two hours ON THE FLOOR! O.O I've never sold anything in my life! Ugh, can't someone just give me a job without giving me a heart attack?!

Tonight I'm going to Mom's to help with her laundry, and tomorrow I'm gonna drop my resume off at the beaches and Jumbo.

midnite_tiger @ 2005-02-22T21:41:00

2005-02-23T02:41:13Z

So today was alright, but very tiring. I had a positively horrible nightmare last night that left me trembling and bawling, so I called Jimi to calm me down. I finally got to sleep and had planned to sleep in today, but Poppa screamed up at me at 9:30 that my comp was here. So I spent a bit setting that up and then went to the Eaton Centre and dropped resumes off at like 12 different stores till I ran out of resumes. Which means I get tomorrow off so Aunt Carol can photocopy them for me. After the mall, I spent almost 2 hours walking to college and spadina and then back down to university and dundas to find a cover for my keyboard and NOBODY had one. I ended up at Staples and got those cans of compressed air people use to get things out of tight places, as well as a wall outlet converter (so now I have six plugs near my bed...I can use my nightlight again!)

When I got home, Mom and Alicia came over and we had a little family thing for Mom's bday. I got her the Childs Play trilogy along with Jimis help, Alicia got her a book and poppa and aunt carol gave her money. We had KFC and cheesecake. Mom will let me know by tomorrow night whether she's going to Eric's on the weekend or not.

So tomorrow I'm sleeping in and going to Mom's to do her laundry. She's gonna give me 20 bucks to do it, and it's to help her out cuz she's in alot of pain lately. I really miss Jimi and wish he could come down tomorrow, but he doesn't get paid till friday so he can't really afford the gas. Suckiest thing about the new comp is that it's not accepting the disks I used to back up my old comp, so unless I can get them on someones comp to email to myself...I will have lost my digicam pics, and all my avatars and user pics :( Anyways, thats all, later.

midnite_tiger @ 2005-02-22T12:01:00

2005-02-22T17:02:02Z

It's here its here i'm on it right now and it works and its quiet, it doesnt sound like its going to explode and the screen feels huge and WEE ITS MINE! WOOHOO!

midnite_tiger @ 2005-02-21T16:33:00

2005-02-21T21:35:32Z

I ____ Nikki.
Nikki is____.
If I were alone in a dark alley with Nikki , I would _______.
I think Nikki should ___________.
Nikki needs _________.
I want to _________ Nikki.
nikki reminds me of _______.
Without Nikki, I would _______.
Memories of Nikki are __________
Nikki can be ______.
Worst thing about Nikki is ________.
Best thing about Nikki is _________.
I am ________ with Nikki.

Consider this entry EDITED, suckah!

So today was alright. Got up at 10:30 and lazed around till I had to rush my ass off to go downtown, lol. Got Mom's book from Alicia, plus feminine products as well as dropped my resume off at Starbucks and Stitches. I saw a bunch of hiring signs so I'm gonna walk my ass off tomorrow. Hit almost all of the stores in the eaton centre, as well as Kensington Market, and Gerrard Square once I get back to my end. I also picked up some flavoured lube for Jimi (come on now, it really is for him lol). I was only willing to spend 10 bucks, and the only 10 dollar one they had was cinnamon so I just bought a bunch of the little pre-packaged twist off top ones in a few diff flavours. That way there's variety, lol. And they're sugar free, so healthier and safer. Apparently the Hustler stuff is really good though, if anyone wanted to know lol. Aunt Carol gave me money to get a retainer for my lip ring, since she's not paying for the autoshow.
After going downtown I went to Mom's and babysat Alicia so Mom could go to the dentist. She has to go back though cuz her dentist is retarded and did the teeth that arent hurting her but need work, so shes in severe pain. I made 25 bucks for babysitting and bathing alicia and doing dishes. Not bad at all, but 20 of that has to go to my birth control so not much gained lol.
Biggest announcement is that my eyebrow ring is gone, but you all saw that from the previous post. I keep forgetting its gone but then I remember and feel sad. It's like losing a tooth or something...you can function without it, but come on now :p
Anyhoo, thats it. I leave you with DO YOU...
1] Like to give hugs?: and how! theres something just so nice about hugging people :)
2] Like to walk in the rain?: Depends....if its absolutely storming, or I'm wearing something hot then no. But if its a light shower and I dont care if I get wet, then yeah
3] Sleep with or without clothes on?: i sleep in the nightie Jimis mom gave me...soooo comfortable
4] Prefer black or blue pens?: black
5] Dress up on halloween?: I love it!
6] Have a job?: not yet but damn do i need one
7] Sleep on your side, tummy or back? all the hell over the place, i'm never in one position for more than half an hour
8] Think your attractive?: Sometimes I get those days where I want to smash the mirror in, but those days are becoming farther and farther apart. I'm really trying to work on loving myself, but I definetly fall off teh wagon
9] Want to marry?: when I'm financially stable
11] Have a goldfish?: what a crappy pet
12] Ever have the falling dream?: oh yeah, and im the type who jumps in bed when i hit the ground
13] Have stuffed animals?: i used to have about 150 of em. Now I have about 8

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT...
1] Abortion: depends on the circumstances. if she was raped, or she might die because of the birthing then i think she should have every right to abort. but if it was just some stupid teen who didnt use a condom, then no, she has to give it up for adoption
2] Eating disorders: they sadden me :(
3] Rape: horrible. i know people that have been raped and they say they would rather have been killed then live with that memory. Coincidentally, i may have been raped as a child but if i was i dont remember it and im not sure if i want to.
4] Suicide: its selfish to the nth level
5] South park: not a huge fan but definetly funny.
6] Peircings: mmmmmmm piercings. stupid migrating eyebrow ring :'(
7] Make-up: w00t to black eyeliner
8] Drinking: great on occassion

L A S T
1] piss: like an hour ago
2] kiss: yesterday :D
3] good cry: yesterday :(
5] movie seen: Constantine, yesterday. Not half bad
6] book read: Domain. Surprisingly entertaining for such a shitty premise
7] cuss word uttered: ^ lol
8] beverage drank: milk
9] food consumed: chicken bacon
10] crush: Jimmay
11] phone call: called my mom
12] tv show watched: i dont remember, actually. something at jimis house
14] shoes worn: O.o black and grey fireflys. get your own damn shoes, Jean! lol
15] cd played: bleeding through.
16] item bought: movie stub
17] soda drank: i dont like soda. i had cherry koolaid slushie at the theatre :D
18] thing written: my little eulogy to my eyebrow ring
19] key used: key to mah crib
20] word spoken: sure to my aunt. shes gonna wrap moms gift for me, cuz i suck at it
21] sleep: last night
22] IM: scootair saying *poke*
23] sexual fantasy: i really wanna wear a skirt with no panties and then do it somewhere outside. we've only ever done it on a bed. i want more kinkiness and variety, damnit!
24] ice cream eaten: dairy queen, what what
25] time wanting to die: yesterday when i thought me and jimi were breaking up
26] lipstick used: purple
27] time dancing: last night when i came home, i danced my way to the fridge listening to Stereo
28] show attended: uurmm...jimis! :D
29] webpage visited: le LJ

A - Age: 18
B - band: lamb of god
C - Choice Of Meat: roast beef
D - Dream Date: either a badass concert followed by a night of hot, rough sex. or dinner at the 360, catching a musical or comedy performance and then doing it under the stars at the bluffs
E - Excites You: jimi, lewis black, lamb of god...all in diff ways
F - Favourite Food: cheese
G - Greatest Gift: love
H - Happiest Day Of Your Life: probably the day Jimi told me he loved me
I - Internal conflicts: im severely neurotic and sabotage the things that make me happiest.
J - Junior whoppers: hold the onions
K - Kool Aid: better when its in slushie form
L - Love: is terrifying and amazing
M - Most Valuable Thing You Own: Jimi. ok, i dont own him but you know what i mean.
N - Name: Nikki
O - Outfit I Love: the red dress jimi got me, my naughty schoolgirl uniform, my japanese dolly uniform...so many.
P - Pizza Topping: pineapples
Q - Question I want to ask: how do i make myself better?
R - Roots: French Canadian and Sicilian
S - Sport to watch: X games type stuff
T - TV show: CSI
U - Unique habits: oh god, i have so many i cant even think of one right now
V - View from the window: my backyard, other peoples backyards and this giant dildo looking thing strapped to someones tree that i still havent figured out what it is
Y - Yesterday's best meal: popcorn and koolaid slushie
Z - Zodiac Sign: Scorpio

my father thinks i am: am not as important as money
my mother thinks i am: just like her
my grandma thinks i am: my grandma doesnt think anymore, shes dead
my grandpa thinks i am: rude and disrespectful, but very capable of alot
my boyfriend/girlfriend thinks i am: confusing and weird but great
my best friend thinks I am: sexy. well her dreams think i am ;)

+your three best qualities =
- my hilarity, i'm priceless.
- my honesty and loyalty
- i can be incredibly intuitive and good at advice giving

+three worst qualities =
- very short temper
- second guessing things that make me happy
- self loathing

+three things you are often complimented for =
- boobs
- sense of humour
- intelligence

+a compliment you got that made you blush =
- whenever Jimi tells me I'm perfect. I dont really blush, I tell him to knock it off, but its the closest thing

+you get embarrassed when =
- i say something really dumb. im amazingly good at hiding my embarassment but i get embarassed ALOT

+makes you happy = jimi, my friends, good food, a good book, CSI, money

+upsets you = myself

yes and no...
+you keep a diary = LJ, durr
+you like to cook = i dont like to learn to cook, but i like it when i cook for someone and they enjoy my food. makes me feel accomplished
+you have a secret you have not shared with anyone = not that i can think of
+you fold your underwear = nup, throw em in a drawer
+you talk in your sleep = apparently so
+you set your watch a few minutes ahead = pfft
+you bite your fingernails = i used to be really bad for that, but not so much anymore
+you believe in love = im in it, and i believe what im in so i guess thats a yes

do......

x. you wish you could live somewhere else = not in another country, but in my own apartment
x. you believe in online dating = i did it once, and it didnt work. i believe that it CAN work, but the chance is slim to nil
x. others find you attractive = yep
x. you want more piercings = *drools*
x. you want more tattoos = i just want one
x. you drink = on occassion. i drink one drink here and there more than i drink to get drunk
x. you do drugs = smoke some pot every now and then
x. you smoke = only if I am drinking and someone else I know is smoking then I will bum
x. you like cleaning = not generally, but every now and then ill freak out and clean my room to perfection
x. you like roller coasters = oh god no.open spaced heights, aaahhh
x. you write in cursive or print = half and half, lol. some letters are cursive, some printed. its rather pretty
x. you carry a donor card = yeppers, behind my drivers license

have you..

x. ever cried over a boy/girl = many many many a time
x. ever lied to someone = i try not to, but of course
x. ever been in a fist fight = long time ago
x. ever been arrested = not officially

what..

x. shampoo do you use = Kiwi
x. perfume do you use = body spray...a mix of whatever i have. right now its my own mix of satsuma, tropical dream, peach, hawaiin ginger, strawberry and sea breeze
x. shoes do you wear = usually my black fireflys, but i also love das boots
x. are you scared of = death, being alone, losing jimi, never amounting to anything, losing my friends and family

|| Favorite: ||
4 letter word: fuck
Actor/actress: theres not one actor where id see a movie just because they were in it
Board game: headbandz or mad gab
Book: the dark half by stephen king
Candy: sour bottles
Cartoon: family guy and simpsons
Cereal: corn pops
Chewing gum: big red
Color(s): black, red, purple
Day of week: Saturday
Flower: daffodils and birds of paradise (the ones that have purple,red, yellow and blue though, not the ones that are just orange)
Jello flavor: cherry
Jewelry: chokers
Special skills/talents: i love my great memory
Summer/Winter: Summer
Trampolines or swimming pools: trampolines in swimming pools

|| Person who last: ||
Slept in your bed: me, obviously. i guess you're looking for someone else, so jimi
You went to the movies with: jimi
Yelled at you: poppa, he was in a crapass mood today
Sent you an email: LJ comment from cleo

|| Have you ever: ||
Said "I love you" and meant it?: once
Kept a secret from everyone: not from everyone, but from select people
Cried during a movie: i usually only cry when animals die (milo and otis, green mile etc) but i usually cry during Gladiator too
Planned your week based on the TV Guide: i used to do that for Buffy, and Xfiles
Been on stage: a few times
Been to New York: nope, but hot damn would i love to go there. HOT TOPIC!
Been to California: never been out of Canada
Hawaii: see above
Mexico: see above
China: SEE ABOVE GODDAMN YOU!
Canada: ...you're an idiot
Europe: ^
Asia: ^!
South America: ^^^!!!!
Australia: oh i haaaaaate you
Wished you were the opposite sex: many a time
What time is it now? 9:01 pm
Apples or bananas?: Apples
Blue or red?: red
Walmart or target?: both are corporate conglomerate capitalist whores!
Spring or Fall?: spring
What are you gonna do after you finish this?: clean up my room and wrap moms bday gift. and probably have a cup of hot chocolate
High school or college?: never been to college, but i hear its alright.
Are you bored?: not as of this moment
Last noise you heard?: my computer struggling to process. 3 more days, buaha
Last smell you sniffed?: iunno, probably moms cigarette smoke but im used to it now
Last time you went out of state/province?: montreal in nov.

|| Friendship/Love: ||
Do you believe in love at first sight?: absolutely not. it takes kismet and personality and conversation to fall in love with someone. i believe in instant chemistry, but not instant love
Do you want children one day & if so, how many?: i dont know anymore. i used to say no but now im on the fence. but only one.
Most important thing to you in a friendship is: someone you can turn to no matter, who'll listen and tell you what you need to hear, whether thats the truth or advice or words of love or whatever

|| Other Info: ||
Criminal record?: not anymore. abolished as of this year :D
Do you speak any other languages?: a bit of sign language (i should really get going on that) and some french
Name some of your favorite things in your bedroom?: my bed, my comp, Spank, my clothes..i dunno, i like my room, its just a little small
Thing you dislike about yourself the most: I really dislike who I've become over the past years...I've become lazy and pessimistic and angry and obnoxious. I'm trying my best to clean up myself
Worst feeling in the world: the moment when you think its over between you and a loved one (not just thinking about jimi here either, also thinking of past friendships)
Who you love: jimi, erica, dave, mom, alicia, poppa, aunt carol, lewis black, david draiman, rob flynn (and he knows it too! lol) Grissom...you know, my everyday peoples LOL!

|| You: ||
Nickname(s): Nikki. Nicole IS technically my name, people :p
Initials: NMG
How old do you look?: depends on who you talk to. some say 20, some say 10. my body is too developed to be young, but my face doesnt look my age
How old do you act?: depends on the sitch. i can act 40 or i can act 5
Glasses/Contacts: glasses for distance and reading
Braces: nuppers
Do you have any pets?: not anymore, im dyeing for a kitty or a bunny, something anything!
What makes you happy?: being with jimi, goofing around with erica and dave, laughing at lewis black, holding it down at the rails, singing, dancing, reading a good book, a yummy cup of hot chocolate with marshmallows, parties...i'm pretty simple for someone so complicated

midnite_tiger @ 2005-02-21T12:45:00

2005-02-21T17:45:25Z

It was good having you, old friend. You'll be sorely missed. But this is your fault for trying to migrate again, and never healing. What else could I do? We obviously just weren't meant to be, no matter how good you looked on me.

R.I.P. eyebrow ring.